Sunday, May 4, 2008

project three



"Our House": Madness


My fondest memories of my young childhood involved one home in particular. This was not my first home, as I was born in Colorado Springs, Colorado and lived there for several years, and not my second home which was a duplex in North Platte. This home was my family’s first house together, as the four of us. Dark red brick encompassed the entirety of our home on West A Street with chocolate brown shutters on the front. Unique to the rest of the block, our house stood out among the red-bricked and white-painted others. My mother placed her wicker seats on the front porch as if to say that this was a comfortable and inviting home. We had a large back yard with a swing set, a plastic blue swimming pool, a dog kennel for our black lab puppy, and my mom’s garden. Our front yard was typical with a mailbox and dozens of flowers planted along the front. Only a happy and loving family could have inhabited such a home. The interior was gorgeously decorated by my mother’s homemade crafts. A fireplace was the centerpiece of our living room and gave the entire room a warm feeling, even when it wasn’t lit. My bedroom was large and full of my favorite things; a Fisher Price plastic table, Porcelain dolls on shelves, Barbie dolls and their bite-size accessories scattered all over my floor, and my closet full of puzzles and games. It was the only house that I had called home, since I could never remember my other houses at the age of four. The only home in which I remember my entire family together and happy as one.




"Home": Michael Buble'

It was my house on the weekends when my dad had visitation. A white-washed, two bedroom house without a yard, fence, or garage. It was a shack of sorts. The kitchen was large with many white cabinets and ruby red carpeting. The refrigerator was olive green and smelled like bleach the few times I was able to get the door open. A large air conditioner filled the dining room window that faced what was supposed to be a yard, but instead was covered in large metal supplies from the Nebraska Public Power District building next door. My father’s only possessions left from the divorce, a 25 inch RCA television and a five-disc CD player and stereo, stood in the living room without an entertainment center to organize them. A salmon-colored couch my grandmother had given him sat on the opposite side of the room, lonely and reflective of my father’s new life. My sister and I shared one of the bedrooms in which a wooden bunk bed with Pocahontas bedding, a small television and a Super Nintendo resided. Our closet was full of the many toys purchased by our dad to keep ourselves busy on those weekends, but mostly to keep our minds off of the fact that this was not our home. It was an awkward bedroom that was constantly cold and lonely. I was scared to sleep in that room because it was not my own, it was like a hotel room. But, it was not just my bedroom that I hated in that place; I disliked the entire shack house, not because it was old or dirty, but because it reminded me of how my parents tore our family apart. The house was full of negative thoughts and made me upset to be there because I knew that my mom would never walk through the front door. The worst feeling, however, was that from now on, my family would never be together in the home we once had.


"Boot Scootin' Boogie": Brooks & Dunn

My dancing career began at age five with two size 10 cowgirl boots. Made of rose pink leather, they had black stitching around the middle and a black heel. I hated those boots because they reminded me of my mother’s cowboy “friend”, a fellow that I disliked quite vigorously. Not only that, but I was forced to wear knee-high socks which made my feet sweat. The new leather gave me blisters on the back of my heels the first time I wore them on my birthday so, from that moment on, I refused to wear them ever again. But, at an age when my every action was controlled by those older than myself, my mother told me that I had to wear them to dinner with my grandma who purchased them for me. I dug for the pink boots that had yet to be scuffed, dirtied, or broken-in at all. They looked perfectly clean, and to my surprise, still fit my feet after several months. I felt the leather squeeze my heel and knew that I would get a blister. After dinner, I was asked to dance. I jumped up and the “Boot Scootin’ Boogie” began playing. My mom proceeded to teach me the Electric Slide dance little by little until I could do it on my own. “Heel, toe…” I had it down perfectly. I no longer felt the boots on my feet as I pranced around doing the Electric Slide. It was my first dance in my first pair of cowgirl boots and I felt snazzy and quite cowgirl-ish. After my night of dancing, I realized that I had scuffed the rose colored boots on the dance floor right at the tip of the toe. It was a small grey scuff about the size of a dime and it made me happy. I felt a sense of accomplishment at my ripened age of five as I had learned to dance in boots that I never thought I could be fond of.




It was after my discovery of the Spice Girls on MTV, a channel that I was not allowed to watch, that I became obsessed. From that moment on, I conned my grandmother and my father into purchasing products with the Spice Girls on the cover. From jewelry to cassette tapes, Spice World the Movie to random accessories, I had it all. My favorite Spice Girls merchandise was my collection of “Spice It Up!” dolls. I had two of Sporty, Posh, Scary, and Baby, but I never found the Ginger Spice dolls. Apparently, she left the group therefore making her dolls rare and valuable. It saddened me for quite some time, but I had fun with my eight other Spice Girls.

I would dress those 11 inch dolls in their scandalous clothing consisting of zebra printed coats, platform boots, the shortest shorts imaginable and bustier bras. We would sing karaoke and pretend to be in London. Oh, it was a great time. Who needed friends when I had the neatest four girls by my side? Scary Spice was always my favorite because she was different from the other Spices. She wore her hair in Zulu knots on top of her head and really strange boots that rose to her knees. I remember trying to put my hair in those same knots before school, but for some reason my dad refused to allow it. So, I asked for platform shoes instead, but I never received those either. I think my dad was not fond my obsession with the Spice Girls, but little did he know that he was only supporting the habit when he bought me those dolls. Although I never turned into a Spice Girl at the age of ten, I am still their number one fan and “2 Become 1” is still my favorite song of theirs. However, now that I am mature enough to know what the song suggests, I wonder why the hell my father let me listen to that music!



"Stiletto Pumps": Crime Mob feat. Miss Aisha


My high school years were defined by several of these uniforms comprised of many different pieces for special occasions and although they were not stiletto pumps, they were still quite flashy. However, there is one uniform in particular that will always symbolize my most important high school days. My cheerleading uniform of my senior year, my captain year, was my favorite. Our school colors were blue, gold, and white. However, the gold was more of a golden yellow instead of a sparkly, disco-ball, solid gold. My shell, or top, was blue with a large white diamond on the front. NPHS was printed inside in gold and blue outlined letters. The shoulder straps had gold and white stripes about half an inch thick on each one. My skirt was solid blue with only gold and white stripes, exactly the same to those on the shell, around the bottom. On cold days, my squad and I wore an under liner which is just a fancy word for a turtle neck, long-sleeved spandex worn under the shell, along with blue polyester pants that were extremely unfashionable. The entire uniform was ridiculously blue, gold, and white. This allowed for my squad and I to stand out amongst our classmates, not only during games, but at school when we were forced by our Nazi coach to wear them on game days. This uniform, while uncomfortable at times, was a symbol for some of my most valuable memories whether they were on the bus, out of town, in the hallways or at practice. My high school days were based mostly on this uniform which gave me a status and a place to belong at school. Of course, I had friends who were not cheerleaders, in fact my best friends were the exact opposite from me, but it was my passion. Without my uniform, I would have been more comfortable, but also I would have been just like everyone else, which is incredibly boring.



"Learning to Fly": Tom Petty

To most, a kite is nothing but a piece of plastic with yarn attached, occasionally tossed into the air to ultimately hit the ground or be imprisoned by a tree. For children, it is quite amusing as they can control the colorful object 50 feet above them by just the movement of a string with the wind as their guide. I have a special and unique kite back home tucked away in my closet. It has not seen light in six years, but I remember my very own hands putting the pieces together with my classmates at my side. Constructed with plastic white straws and brilliantly colored tissue paper, my kite took an entire week of science class to make. Each piece glued and placed strategically onto another into pyramid shapes. The pyramids were small, consisting of a skeleton of straws covered with sheets of turquoise, yellow, orange and magenta tissue paper. These were then tied together in a group of four to form one large tetrahedral kite. The first time I flew my kite, I crashed it into the playground blacktop, due to the fact that I just threw it abruptly into the air without giving it a little guidance. The scars from that fall are still present on the edges of my kite where the turquoise paper is torn and Scotch-taped back together. With only one flight, my kite was thrown into the closet where it has yet to see sunlight since that spring day in eighth grade. At my graduation in May of 2007, as my class song was played loudly over the football field, I listened to Tom Petty’s lyrics and thought of my kite. I remembered its first flight, having never touched the wind before. My kite had flown, just as I had flown after graduation, without guidance for the real world.



"Brat Pack": The Rocket Summer

The residents of North Platte, Nebraska refer to them as the “ones”. They are a set of one-way streets running through the entire city—one heading north, and one south. The “ones” are a nuisance to travelers as they can only get to Wendy’s on the southbound one-way, and the shopping mall on the northbound one-way, with several stop lights in between. These inconveniences make the “ones” truly unique, but that is not all the “ones” are known for. On Fridays and Saturdays, the youngsters of North Platte, in a lack of anything better to do, race up and down the “ones” blaring loud music, screaming, and honking at passersby. At stop lights, it is possible to see people run out of cars and jump back in just as the light flashes green, switching spots in the car as their bodies are crunched by others in the nearest proximity. With friends packed tight like sardines in the passenger seats, it is quite the sight to see. To people not living in North Platte, this might seem like a strange activity and I will be one to admit that it is odd to think about driving in a large circle up and down North Platte for hours. However, I enjoyed many of those nights with my closest of friends, my “brat pack”, as we honked and sang along to our favorite songs, half-hanging out the windows with the white dashed lines just feet from our faces. Like Bryce Avary’s lyrics say “I don’t want to get stuck in here, when I am 34 just talking about high school years”, I know that when I go back to North Platte I am more mature than when I left. I do not automatically jump in my car, blasting my music as I once did because everything has changed since high school. While my friends and I are more distant than before and less likely to ever “cruise the ones” I still like to think about the good ol’ days when life was about having carefree fun with friends on those two streets.


"She Blinded Me With Science": Thomas Dolby

One whole year of college has passed, or rather sped, by. I think about everyone I have met, the classes I despised, the professors that were kind and those who were not, and the experiences I have shared with others. As I packed away my belongings into boxes and large back Rubermaid tubs, I glanced at my chemistry goggles. At $13.50, quite the pricey pair of eyewear, I was peeved when I had to purchase them from the bookstore. Lime green Sellstrom Brand goggles with four black vents on the corners and a matching lime green elastic band to hold them onto my face; they were my only companion throughout every three hour lab. Every Wednesday afternoon, I would venture to lab not knowing exactly what would be expected or what chemicals I would be using, but I knew my goggles would be in my drawer. I pulled them out of my drawer, expanded the elastic and fit them snugly to my face. My goggles protected my eyes with hard plastic that stuck to my skin like a magnet. After every lab, I would throw them back in to the drawer, anxious to leave the terrible lab setting, but the goggle marks would still remain with a large red ring around my eyes and cheeks from where those goggles once were. While I never respected their protection or handled them with care, I look back on those goggles and realize that they hold all of my memories from General Chemistry and Organic Chemistry 1 this past year. Knowing that I will not be taking chemistry again at NWU makes me happy, but I am sure that I will want to put those goggles on in the future just to remember how they feel.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

barf-nugget



"Pour Some Sugar On Me" by Def Leppard


Q: What has nine arms and sucks?


If you didn't understand that joke of mine, then you probably are not a big Def Leppard fan. There are five members of this kick-ass '80s band, but unfortunately their drummer only has one arm. It's okay to laugh, I always do. I'm actually not a big fan of Def Leppard because they are terrible, especially this song. Everytime I go to a public function or school dance, this song is most definately on the playlist, and everytime I am reminded of my father's disgusting taste in music. My dad is 6'2" and a "big boned" guy. He's really big into hunting and fishing and manly stuff like steak and baked potatoes. So, growing up with my dad raising me was a little different since he was a bachelor of sorts. You could say that my childhood was, well, manly. I remember the Christmas of my 7th grade year in middle school. I asked the big guy for a new winter coat. Whenever we would go to JCPenney, I would walk my dad by the girl's section and point to the coat I wanted. It was a dark purple marshmallow coat with golden buttons. It had an elastic waist with a large hood. Basically, it was the bomb. So, Christmas rolled around and I just knew I was going to get that coat because it was the only item on my Christmas list and with my stellar-awesome grades I knew Santa had my back. I opened my large box to uncover a coat. I threw a fit and ran into my room crying. This coat was an Extra-Large black and grey Adidas coat and it was hideous. I couldn't stop crying and I hated my dad at the moment. I didn't just hate it because it was black and grey, but because the most nerdy kid in my class had the exact same coat. Never would I step foot in public with that thing on my back! My dad refused to take it back so, for the rest of the winter I froze my butt off in my old coat that didn't really fit because I would not be caught dead in the Adidas coat. I am haunted by the expensive coat that never touched my back. It was from that moment on that I realized my dad had terrible taste in not only music, but clothing as well.

Floofy Bangs

"We Compliment Each Other Like Colors" by PlayRadioPlay!
This song is currently one of my favorites. I have a difficult time choosing a favorite song because I'm constantly listening to new music. I find this song to be relaxing and very unique. I had not seen this video until I searched the song on YouTube, but I liked the music video even more. It has a techno-indie-emo appearance and Daniel Hunter, the lead singer, always makes me giggle. He is nerdy with red hair longer than mine. It's always wierd for me to see guys with hair that's longer than mine because it's abnormal. Guys are just supposed to have shorter hair than girls. It is the nerdy red hair that reminds me of my hair as a young child. At the age of five, as I entered kindergarten, my hair was to by butt and platinum blonde. The front half of my hair was nothing but bangs that my mom chose to "floof" every morning. She would curl them by layers until I had a stack of curls on my forehead. Then, she would take a comb and tease them until I had an extra three inches added to my height. When they were at the perfect altitude, my mom would surround me with a cloud of hair spray that smelled cheap. I was too young to realize that my mother was tormenting me. I looked like a minature '80s chick as I left for school in my light-up shoes and Saved By The Bell backpack. I was bitchin'. Although my hair was not red like the lead singer from PlayRadioPlay!, I can definately say it was nerdy as I look back on it now. Poofy-Floofy bangs and long permed hair in the back screams "nerdy", but I'm glad to know that there are people who are proud of their not-so-attractive hair-dos. This might even inspire me to chop off my bangs and go floof-crazy!

Saturday, April 19, 2008

My life is boring and I have nothing to write about.

The title says everything. My life is dull and I feel incompetant because I have not found a single thing to write in this blog for 45 minutes. So, today I will write about how boring my life is and how I wish it were. So, let me just start by saying that I hate school, even college, and I want to go home. I want to be back in high school where assignments were easy, teachers were lazy, and I saw all of my friends in one day. I have not found a single person this school year that could replace any of my friends from high school and I'm pretty sure I was supposed to. Everyone said how college would be great and I would forget those people from high school because they didnt' matter. On the contrary, I wish I could forget a lot of people I met this year. So, being back in high school would totally rock right now, especially since tonight is my high school's prom and I absolutely ate that kind of stuff up in high school. I also wish I were home because I would have a room, the size of the one I'm sharing right now, to myself not to mention a bathroom and shower to myself as well. About two thirds of the people that live on my floor are obnoxiously loud, but only when I'm trying to concentrate or sleep. Their drunken moments are also obnoxious. So, my entire point is basically that I want to go home and quit college. The grades are not what they used to be and my friends are so far away that I want to cry. I hate this place, but on the up-side, I am sure next year will go better, so I guess I'll come back. sigh...